I love you Mom

  - June 3rd, 2008 by Shalini Nambiar | Posted in General   27 Comments »
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I love you Mom…

‘Mom, Please trust us .we are with you in this time of crisis’. Me and my sister sat across my mom trying to convince her . We could sense her feeling of disbelief and distrust as she glared at us through her glasses. The meaning was clear she no longer trusted us… sometimes it felt that she has forgotten we were her children….

I frequently had my little chats with God as to what had happened to my Mom… She had changed after papa’s death last year.

The same woman who would sit late in the night to knit me the most beautiful sweater which I wanted to wear the next day for my school weekend party… the same woman who will give me milk at 0300 am , who would spend sleepless nights during my board exams. Who will not sleep just to make sure that she was able to wake us up at odd hours for our studies during examination time.

I dedicate this article to that mother who now after so many years looks at us with disbelief and does not trust us.

‘Moti..Shahi-nahi-hai …that’s how I was called by my school mates …Each day from my school Ill come back crying hating my name Shalini and being plump…and would hide in the most comfortable place my Mom’s lap which would immediately give me a sense of security and the minute she would put her hand on my head I would be a transformed soul. She will never speak much but just give me that immense support all the times and a smile which always said.’My dear, I trust you and I love you a lot’ . To make me happy and smiling would make that yummy gajjar ka halwa, kheer and what not …

‘You should not bother what people say , you should work hard and be the best as then they will notice you for what you are… being fat doesn’t mean being ugly… my beautiful daughter .you are the most beautiful person on this earth’ Mummy would tell me this everyday .

Her constant hammering of these words was having an unnoticed impact on me an urge to do something really good and a desire to be known to this world.

‘Lovely’ you know who gave you this pet name… it was the nurse in the hospital because you were so plump and beautiful”, she would say all these things to make me feel wonderful about myself.

It was this faith and trust of her in me which encouraged me and gave me that burning desire to be the best in whatever I do or did .After having secured excellent grades in class XII she came with Papa to drop me to LSR .my dream college… and she had the same faith and trust in me when she left me in the hostel. I broke her trust … not once but thrice we were caught by the hostel warden for going out without informing… both my parents were called .I was scared .but she sat calmly and just said. ‘remember in life whatever you do will make or mar you .so be careful…have fun , enjoy yourself but always know your limits’. That trust in me even at that time made me cry for days in shame .that was worst than being scolded or shouted at as most of the parents did or would do. She unknowingly gave me a lesson of life and that helped me while bringing up my own kids.

When the first time I started working she came all the way to bless me… and her feeling of elation knew no limits as years started crawling and i started progressing…. and when I won awards… my picture appearing in the newspaper gave her that ecstatic feeling .which I still cant get over… that smile on her face… that feeling of pride which every child craves to see on their Mom’s face was there..

I owe whatever I’m today to my Mom. I, as a child was extremely shy and a feeling of insecurity was there since I was always a plump child… many people who know me now would probably be shocked by that statement today … My Mom who gave me all the courage and supported me all throughout, taught me how important it is to face the world and do what one thinks is right…not to be chained but believe in oneself and never lose faith in God.

Today she is frail, old, cant hear properly, and she distrusts… she starts crying like a child and I’m not able to comfort her the way she did.

Mother we need you …you don’t know how blessed we are and whatever we are today is because of you .Our hearts scream but she can’t hear us.

‘Mom, I’m a director of a school… mom your dream is fulfilled but you don’t seem to care. Remember, I made you wear your most favorite sari when I took you as a chief guest to a recent sport’s festival at my school, I spoke from the heart about what you meant to me to the huge gathering but everyone heard except you .you just smiled and you were busy playing with the small kids… forgetting to hug me for what I spoke… you didn’t hear a word I had spoken about you .you were more engrossed in talking to my teachers… it seems you didn’t care about me .Mom .I still need you .believe me please I need you .and I need you more than ever before ……where should I go when I feel down in the dumps .where should I go when people let me down….where should I go when I want someone to just hear to me… you tenderly, patiently cared for me and taught me to walk and talk. you read to me and made me laugh. No one delighted in my successes more; no one could comfort me better in my failures. I am so grateful for how you mothered me and mentored me, and even disciplined me. You gave me the courage to face the storm, it was you who taught me how to always smile in the worst of times… I need you …Please believe me ..’

I decided to visit my Doctor friend and seek his advice and he said she is going through a bad phase, a trauma which a woman who was so dependent on the man in his life goes through frequently when she loses him. Time will make her overcome all this but when??? I hope I’m not too old by then to enjoy the secure feeling of having a mother besides me.

I just want to say one thing… I love you Mom a lot…..

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June 03 2008 12:23 am | General

27 Responses to “I love you Mom”

  1. Parul Says:

    Couldn’t stop my tears when i read this… love you and miss you…

  2. Hema Dhawan Says:

    Ms. Shalini,

    I know you as a person and i could make out what depth each and every word had.I had always seen a director , a professional,a mother,a friend in you but after reading it i could visualize a daughter in you.
    God bless you!

  3. Ronak Says:

    Your article is extremly touching and it leaves one with wet eyes……It brings back lots of memories of my Mom whom I lost when I was very young ….atleast thank God you have her till now ……My Mom told me one thing which I still remember that keep smiling and thats what Im doing till now …..so happy writing Shalini and kudos to a great person like you ……you have always motivated me …..

  4. Gurpreet Singh Says:

    Hi Shalini,

    I can only say that it’s a very warm and heartfelt article – filled with real emotions, folded hands and hope in eyes….

    God Bless !

  5. Sahil Says:

    God Bless You …youv written this very beautifully ..it touches ones heart and one can see the truth pouring out ….you write very well ………Im sure therell be lot of us who will be able to relate to it ….that how one can never fight against time and nature….I’d like to thank you from the heart because what I did after reading this was to call back home and speak to Mom for an hour which I hadnt done since long…Thank you Shalini!!!!!

  6. sobhana kumary Says:

    Hi Shalini…… This is tribute to all Moms……..they r always like that. You r lucky, u could realise this when ur mother is still alive,..
    My mom was not at all like yours…. I couldnt understand….in fact all my siblings…..her properly when she was alive. She was always hard on us,never showed any tender emotion towards us.
    only after her death, I could feel”what a void she has left”.
    I salute ur mom and mine too!!!!!!!!

  7. Ekta Kapoor Says:

    Ms Shalini
    I have always regarded you as my mentor, my guide and aim to be achieved one day……..it was a tear droping devotion by you for your mother.I could visualize your mother in you.love you lots….god bless you and your mom.I gave my mom a hug and thanked her for what she has given me.thanks to you again….


  8. Mayank Says:

    I happen to search the net nd came across this article…very well written could almost feel the pain…reminded me of my Mom who is no longer there and had tears in my eyes….it gave one a sense of connectivity with the author…

  9. jyoti Says:

    Hi maa’m
    You have poured your heart out and left me with wet eyes. I can see a loving and caring daughter in you. It reminded of my dad who is physically no longer alive still with me always.
    I salute you for this.

  10. sangeeta Says:

    an article which can move you to tears can only be described in one word—powerful…very well written..keep up the good work.

  11. Devika Says:

    It is so beautifully written, each word is moving. I made my mom read it and waterworks didnt stop till 10 min.

  12. tanya Says:

    i love u mom and will always take care of u…i will never let u down..muah

  13. Nithya Sherman Says:

    The article left me with tears and lumps in my throat. A very touching article…..having spent a year with you i can visualise and understand how you feel. God bless u and miss u

  14. Devika Says:

    Beautifully written Ma’am, very moving..and makes one realize how very special mums are !

  15. Desi Explorer Says:


    A article like this really moved me no end. How you elaborated on what your mother did for you was wonderful and heart warming. What our mothers do for us is selfless and beyond words. But yes, we have this knack of being ungrateful and taking them for granted. We forget that at the end of the day, they are humans and have their own feelings. I have promised myself to make every day worthwhile for my mother. Make the days of her life filled with laughter and joy.

    Friends, please do the same. Tommorrow, if God takes her away from you, you dont want to live the rest of your life in a feeling of regret that you could not make it up to your mother.

    God bless you all!

  16. shalini datta Says:

    dear mrs nambiar, you remind me of a person so perfect and appropriate at work in school, but i learnt from you how heartfelt emotions can never stop a person from being affectionate and loving for everyone around, but the source of it all has come from your mom. i love you coz of your tremendous faith and understanding but i see it coming from your abundant respect and trust you have in her and how she has trained you over the years. she will always be there with you to support you through difficult times,even in these difficult times she is there with you supporting you to deal with change and cope with hard times which are inevitable. i love to see you as a bold person your mom loved to see you and achieve what she wanted you to. Its heartening to see tremendous faith and strength of character in contemporary times. god bless you. i look forward to seeing you as leading a big team. i think awards dont matter much its how you make difference in peoples lives and you have achieved that and are doing it everyday. thats your moms true blessings and we at excelsior are grateful to her for that.

  17. Shalini nambiar Says:

    Cant believe it that shes no more..12th March .miss u mom

  18. Poonam Says:

    its a very touching article, could relate to it.. my father was exactly lk ur mom… love him…hv developed love fr mom also more than ever.. all thnx to u.. it was v sad to hear abt ur mom.. hp to see more articles frm u.. all the best!!

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  27. Dr Amrita Vohra Says:

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